Someone I love deeply said something that absolutely broke my heart today. She told me that she is terrified of dying or Jesus returning because she doesn't know if she'll go to heaven. She said that she prays about it daily and still feels uncertain.
This hit me to my core.
I've been there. In fact, I spent much of my life worrying about this very thing. I, too, felt uncertain...and unworthy. I spent years searching for the ever elusive "purpose" for my life...or God's will. I wondered what, if
anything, I was even capable of contributing to this world.
What I didn't understand was that I didn't need to do anything to receive God's love or grace. It was there and always had been. I simply needed to ask for and receive it. Even when I realized
this I wondered why it was so. I knew I was undeserving.
I remember, as a young child, being told by my Sunday school teacher that if I was at a movie theatre when Jesus came back I would be left behind. It didn't deter me in the least from going to
the movies, but I did pray in earnest that God wouldn't come back while I was there. I was scared and thus scarred. I bring this up because it instilled an unnecessary fear in my heart that God was only looking for perfection. And since I wasn't perfect I
wasn't entering those pearly gates. I wondered to myself just how hot hell was.
(in Christian belief) the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings.
The word "grace"
is found 206 times in the KJV bible. Ephesians 1:7 says "In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace." It doesn't say only a select few receive this gift. It doesn't say only the perfect
The apostle Paul hunted down believers and persecuted them. Yet, God not only redeemed him, He used him for His glory. Even when Paul was torturing Christians God knew that he would soon turn his life around and dedicate himself to bringing
others to Christ. In 1 Corinthians 10:15 Paul writes, "But whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out his special favor on me--and not without results. For I have worked harder than any of the other apostles; yet it was not I but God who was working
through me by his grace." God saved and used someone undeserving.
There is a song called 'Grace Wins' by Matthew West. This is the beautiful chorus...
There's a war between guilt and grace
And they're fighting for a sacred space
But I'm living proof
Grace wins every time
No more lying down in death's defeat
Now I'm rising up in victory
Grace wins every time
We will never ever fall so far down that Jesus can't reach us. He
is with us even in our darkest, most depraved depths. He went down to the pits of hell to save us because He loves us...because He loves you. He loves you. I'll say it again...He loves you.
God knew even before He created you just how your life was
going to play out. He knew about every sin you were going to commit. He knew about every failure, yet you are here. You were made with and to fulfill God's purpose. You have value. We can become overwhelmed by past mistakes. Satan is the 'accuser of the brethren.'
But when forgiven God has already cast our sins into the sea of forgetfulness. So you see, beautiful soul...
'Grace wins every time.'