When God Says No
Proverbs 19:21 says, "Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails."
I had an awakening (so to speak) a few years back. I came very close to giving up on my life. To say that things hadn't gone the way I had planned is an understatement. I was very afraid. I had lost all hope. I've written about this before, but for those who haven't read my former posts, I very nearly took my own life.
God used this experience to restore me. I was shown that my life was not my own. I was shown my purpose. At my lowest God showed me that everyone is redeemable and that every life matters...my life mattered. If I had succeeded in ending my life I would have just missed the extraordinary and imminent blessings He had in store for me. I couldn't see a tomorrow, but God did and He was always there awaiting my arrival. After all, He is our past, present, and future.
Life is capricious. We are living in very uncertain times. With war, death, and destruction on many fronts; with the state of our economy; with the very real threat to our children it is so hard not to be in a perpetual state of fear. But this is the very reason to trust that God has us covered.
This week I have struggled with uncertainty. I've had to put my trust solely on God's shoulders. Today was a life-changing kind of day. It was a day that could have either left me jubilant or devastated. It was really either/or. For the past few months as I've prayed I've given this situation to God. I made up my mind that I would praise Him no matter the outcome because it wasn't about me. Was this easy for me? Yes and no. When you truly believe that God is in control it is easy to give it to Him. However, I also had to prepare myself for the unfavorable outcome as well. It can be very hard not knowing or understanding God's plans. A "no" today would have left me shattered. Yet I would have praised God anyway knowing His way is always best.
There have been many times in my life where God has said no and I was left completely heartbroken. I have been truly angry with God. But looking back to the "no's" I have been able to see exactly why He closed those doors and I have been tremendously grateful.
There is a song by Lauren Daigle called "Trust In You." I have leaned on this song for the past couple of weeks. This is the chorus...
"When You don't move the mountains I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!"
I'm actually listening to this song as I write. It comforts me. Trusting God is scary, but It is also an act of faith that He honors. Believe me. Looking back on the times where I thought I could manage on my own is the very reason I have chosen to seek Him first.
Deuteronomy 31:6 says...
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
The truth is that it there will always be uncertainty. As the world grows more and more corrupt, the future can appear pretty bleak. But knowing that I don't have to face any trial alone (even facing the inevitable no from time to time) I will never hesitate to give it all to Him. After all, I'd rather trust my future to the one who already knows the outcome.